Confessions

Okay a huge confession coming your way! I AM FIT!! I am FITTIER than I have ever been.

I am reveling in my fitness gains and realizing that hard pays off, maybe not today, tomorrow but eventually hard work always pays off.

And wa la -

I ran a dream tempo/aerobic threshold run today. 6:49, 6:49, 6:44, 6:44, 6:44, 6;44, 6:44, 6:40, 6:40, 6:35

What I loved about this run was that I frickin loved this run! I was so content, relaxed and confident. I stayed positive and the constant atta girls coming from brain were fueling me to run faster. Only did I feel challenged was in the last mile as I just wanted it done so I pressed a bit faster to get it over quicker.

So this run was slightly overshadowed by a monkey on back that has frustrating to say the least. My struggle with my weight. I use to never have weight problems at all until the thyroid went haywire and now I can gain weight very quickly and very easily with no rhythm or reason that I can figure out.

I have been running mega miles and haven't really watch my weight but I felt like my sports bras were fitting tight in past couple of weeks. Sure enough I weighed myself this AM and frickin 5 pds out of now where not to mention the 5 pds that I had hoped to shed in high mileage. How does one run 70-80 miles a week and gain weight??? I have no idea. I am not ever a big eater and have to force food down sometimes to fuel runs. Anyway that whine session is over.

When I stepped on the scale this AM, the news of the weight gain threaten to derail my workout effort. I called my husband to cry to him about it and he got my head on straight. He said this is just another piece of your puzzle that you need to figure out. He was so right. I put the weight out of my mind and went to work killing my tempo. I haven't come this far to have 5-10 pds get me down and in a tizzy.

After my run, I spoke with my sports soft tissue guy who also does sports nutrition for endurance athletes and specializes in the Ironman distance. So fueling for performance..That is what I need to learn how do I fuel my body with the calories it needs without over or under doing it. He speculates that I am under fueling and my body is trying to keep everything. I will know in a few days as I am suppose to keep a food journal for next 4 days. I have hope that once we figure how to fuel my body I will thin out a bit.

I am not going to dwell on the pounds but know that we will figure this out too! Just like I have figured everything this far.

Keep moving forwarding...