One definition I found was the ability to do something that frightens one.
I am running a half marathon tomorrow. Part of me is very scared. I own that. I have worked very hard over the past year to rebuild my health and get my fitness back. One thing that has eluded me has having predictable TSH (thyroid hormone) levels. During training I can deal with the uncertainty of not feeling well, if a workout does not go as well as hoped or a run is more difficult than it should be than no big deal there is always another day but dealing with in a race setting is another beast.
I am hoping that I feel great and can run a time that reflects my training efforts and all that I have put into it physically, mentally and emotionally.
I know that if I am given the opportunity on race day to run hard, I am going to seize it and savor it.
I am SCARED - you bet! I am scared that it won't work out and that I will be forced to pick up the pieces from another thyroid jamming race. Looks at the faces that love and support me and say that's okay I will keep trying.
But with the fear, I also play with the possibility that my day may come where I am able to run true to my abilities. I know with a certainty that when the conditions are right everything I have done will come through. Will it be tomorrow?
I have no idea but I will have the courage to face this fear so that I may succeed. Cause what I have learned you have to risk a certain amount of yourself and put yourself out there to truly succeed.
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